Psalm 119:92 – Delight

If your instruction had not been my delight,
I would have perished in my affliction.

There was a time when my pursuit of Bible study was a matter of duty, or perhaps even more a “good work” by which I would find the inside track with God. Besides hearing God’s voice in the registration line (another story), my reason for getting to know more and more about the Bible was to get to know the real truth, not filtered through any other people.

Surrounding an actual desire to know God was the desire to know God better than other people did, and to do so without relying on those other people. I wanted to find the truth for myself. I was out of graduate school before I began to realize that I knew many things about God, but that I did not actually know God.

More importantly, however, I resisted the God that I could potentially have known, had I been willing to go there. I didn’t like that God, who did do things according to my will, and demanded a full commitment. I fled from that knowledge.

When, in God’s own time, I was drawn back, it was not a change of technicalities in my mind. I didn’t suddenly find God easier to believe in. I found no new proofs of God’s existence. What I found first was that I did, in fact believe. Then I surrendered to the God I had found years before and found that there was a new freedom on the other side.

God’s word, which I passionately pursued in order to make divine favor points, became a delight. This was not something I accomplished. It happened to me. Nothing that I did got me to that point.

But in extremely difficult times since then I began to realize that I was making it through because of the delight brought to me by God’s word. Time in scripture has become an activity that energizes me and helps me do all the other things I need to do. it is the foundation.

Now unlike what many recommend, I don’t have a specific time of the day set aside to study scripture. There have been periods of time when I take that approach. For example, I aim to check the next verse of Psalm 119 before I go to bed, and then review it multiple times over the next 24 hours in order to write these meditations. But most of the time, my Bible study is scattered through my day.

You could take this verse as a call to a certain effort you should take, a formula for survival. “If I just read enough scripture, and I put on a convincing happy face while I do so, I’ll make it through whatever I’m facing.” That’s not it.

It’s the realization that you have an anchor, that you have an identity, and that you have a mission. All of that is based on a relationship with the creator of everything who can take care of you in all cases.

Can you take hold of that today?

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